Yesterday as I sat on a flight, marking both an end and a beginning, I wrote out all that was on my heart. I wrote about the experience of the last 5 months and worked through (as much as possible) all the feelings of the moment. As I sat, scribbling away, I wrote these words- "Life passes us by in a breath." an idea I will expound upon a later date. For now however, I want to talk about this moment, the 'breath' I am currently breathing...
I am sitting at the counter of one of my favorite coffee shops in the world (seriously... and you all know if you follow me on instagram that I have been to A LOT of coffee shops in the last 5 moths).
I am sitting between two people I love dearly- my husband... who is the best guy ever and his brother who is a gem of a human.
I am two Americanos deep and contemplating a third.
I am tired in the best way.
I am content.
I am excited for the future.
I am happy to be where I am.
I am looking forward to all the next few days hold- friends, family, love, hardship, chili cook offs and too much coffee.
I am trying not to obsess over all the things coursing through my veins. All the decisions, feelings, excitement, fears, anticipations, expectations, wants, needs, etc. pushing their way through my heart, begging it to burst.
There is bad pop playing over the shop speakers and I kind of love it.
The sun is shining through the early autumn skies and the weather is perfect.
Lunch is on my mind.
Words are flooding their way back into my soul, my fingers are itching to write them.
I will make myself rest... if only for a moment.
I am looking forward to walks through familiar neighborhoods. Knowing faces everywhere I go. I am excited to chat with the clerks at my favorite stores, to pass the time having cocktails on my friends roof as the sun sets over the city, too much coffee and long conversations.
There is good here. There is joy and pain and beauty. And I long to be present in it all.
What about you?! What is your life at the moment?