I'm having one of those days... one of those weeks really... where I can't understand people. Why they do what they do, why they say what they say (seriously though, why do we say somethings!?). Not understanding others of course heavily affects our subconscious understanding of self. We are constantly evaluating our performance, what is acceptable/unacceptable, good/bad, by gauging it against the world around us. So when we can't seem to get our heads around the world that unconscious act (of self evaluation) short circuits a little.
For example... why are people so mean!? 'Shit talk' has become more bonding than having a real conversation. Internet comments make people feel invincible; they think they have a RIGHT to say things (without having to see the repercussions or feel the reality of what they are actually saying). We act out of selfish self serving motives 98% of the time. We don't like to be inconvenienced, we don't like people stepping on our toes, and we hate feeling 'threatened' by people encroaching upon our world (our bubble).
HOLD THE PHONE
Are we really so cruel? Are we really so self serving? I am guilty of every single one of those actions, from shit talk to acting out of self serving motives... but you guys... I'm kind of over it. I want to learn to let it (the f&^%) go and chill (the f&^%) out. Everyone has their baggage, everyone has their own story, everyone is living their own narrative and at the end of the day I choose to believe that we are all just doing the best we can, the best way we know how.
Change is hard and it is slow, but I know, in my heart of hearts that, a)it is absolutely possible and b)that it is totally worth it, So starting today I'm going to listen closely to what I say, about others and myself; after all, "what Sally says about Susie says more about Sally than Susie." I am going to apply the rule of, "if you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." and as always (and by always I mean like the last two weeks) I will focus on what I say about myself and what I think about myself, so that over time the natural reaction will be grace and positivity, not judgement and negativity.
It is possible you guys! I know it is.
Lets do this thing, let's change our brains and put good vibes into the universe!
*Two people who put loads of positivity into the universe and remind me to be grateful and full of joy- Bonnie and Ellen, I am so lucky to have you xx