2015- the year I stop apologizing!
I am a serial apologizer, even if the thing isn't my fault, I feel a deep compulsion to say I'm sorry. You hit your head? I'm sorry... You don't like the food your ordered? I'm sorry. You got a bad cup of coffee? I'm sorry.
I'm not saying I won't say 'I am sorry' ever again... if I have done something, if something is truly my fault, etc. I will most certainly apologize. But you guys... I am so sick of feeling like I need to apologize for my life.
WOW... I feel good just getting that off my chest.
It is in my nature to apologize, I have done it since I came out of the womb. I'm pretty sure the doctor held me up and instead of crying I looked at my sweat drenched mother and said, "I'm sorry about all that...really." I mean, if it wasn't directly after being born than it most certainly was my first words.
I think it is because I just want everything to be 'ok', I want everyone around me to be happy and care free and if they feel like they need to apologize for something than I haven't done my job right... let me take the burden, let me take the blame. This is a bad habit and I am bound and determined to break it (after all... I am not a backpack).
My life, your life, is worth while. What we 'do' matters... very much, no matter how big or small it may seem to those around us, it is what we are doing for right now and you don't need to feel bad about that!
We are more powerful, more talented, stronger, and more amazing than most of us ever give ourselves credit for... not that we need to have a big head about it... but we can sit and quietly know, "yeah... I'm pretty f*&%ing awesome".