My Darlings, my Dears,
Happy Valentines day.
I will not sit here and pretend that I am smitten with this holiday (though I do think it holds more merit then Halmarks “sweetest day”…seriously though, what the hell is that all about). However, given that I am not a totally cold hearted individual, I do see the value in a day set aside to celebrate love, beauty, and romance.
Even though I am a commit-a-phobic soul (who some how ended up married, I will leave you to work that one out) I am a total sap and romantic at heart. I watched Paperman the other day and found my self welling up, surely it was my allergies or dust floating into my eyes. It couldn’t possibly have been that Disney, yet again, captured my heart in only a few short minutes, bringing me to tears like a school girl in love (laugh all you want, but I dare you to watch the simple magic of that film and not feel your heart swell in your chest, eyes become moist, and long to find the one you will love for all eternity).
Though I may not be in love with St.Valentines and his little cherub minions, this time of year does hold a special place in my heart. You see, Drew and I got back together four years ago tomorrow (the 15th) and had our third first date on the 19th. We don’t really care to celebrate Valentines because far greater forces are at work in our history than chocolate filled hearts or tacky teddy bears could ever understand or express. That being said, let me tell you a little story.
-FOUR YEARS AGO-
I sat watching him, quiet, my leg bouncing incessantly as he read the words I had written. That letter was the very image of my soul on paper, my heart bled into every word. I feared the moment he would finish reading, not knowing how he would respond, not knowing what I would do in return.
Drew had been apart of my life for so long. The ending and beginning were blurred so smoothly I couldn’t tell where one started and the other finished. I stared at him my mind whirling, he looked so calm, so at ease. The heater kicked on and off, softly harmonizing to the rapid beat of my heart.
Slowly he raised his eyes from the letter I had read a thousand times, the words I knew by heart, and simply said, “It’s really good.” a smile caressing the edges of his lips. My eyes shot up to meet his, they must have been saucers with tea leaves waiting to be read for without missing a beat he broke into a full smile and said, “So, are we going to do this?”
How the rest came to pass, my darlings, is a story for another day.
So go, find the one you love, a friend, a pet, significant other, tell them you love them, kiss them on the cheek and let your heart be full in knowing the beauty that love provides.